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I found myself in a rut. I had such a disconnect from my work and the photography I once loved and craved became something I had no feelings for… like nothing. Numb was the only word I could use to describe how I was feeling.

What had gone so terribly wrong? How could I spend a lifetime with a camera in my hand and all of a sudden find myself with my “dream job” and have these feelings towards it? It took a lot of self discovery. It took isolation to hear inside my heart. It took confusion, tears, anger and basically giving up to figure out… I COULDN’T give up! It wasn’t in me. There was this pull to continue doing what I loved so much I just had to find a new way to go about it. I had to shake myself free of the doubt, the rules, the expectations I had placed on myself to “play it safe”. I had to let go of that “people pleasing” mentality and do for ME. It wasn’t easy and it wasn’t quick.

To be honest with you, it took almost two solid years to get it all out of my head and get right with my creative voice. I am not going to say it wasn’t painful. But what came out of it…what came out of that muck was so much clarity. Not only for my photography work but for my heart.

The thing I discovered most about myself (although I did already know it, I just didn’t know how to express it) was that I am super upbeat, fun, optimistic and an overall happy personality…but I am just a little “deeper” than most. I don’t know how to even explain it. It is just who I have always been… I don’t just hear the beat to a song, I feel the words…type deep. I see beyond the surface of people and truly feel their heart.

I am very aware that everyone has a “story” and not in a cliché kind of way…like a REAL story. Life isn’t always pretty. It sure isn’t always easy… and no matter what the story is, whether I even really know the details or not…I capture it.

I like to look at my photography as way to capture a FEELING and a MOMENT…it isn’t about your hair or your makeup…it is about YOU and YOUR STORY.

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this Christmas we were at a loss for what to get my 12 year old. She is “too old” for toys but still “too young for tech stuff or clothes” and I struggle with material things…I am a BIG believer in MOMENTS and MEMORIES.

 

so. this year we decided her BIG gift was going to be a mom and daughter trip to the Big Apple… the city that never sleeps…yes New York City!! the flights were booked, the hotel was reserved the broadway shows were picked out, the only thing left to do was ride through Central Park in a horse drawn buggy….we had our jackets and even the snow boots packed. we were ready! our flight was in less than 10 hours….

 

and we got that email…

“your flight has been cancelled due to weather” NOT ONE flight was available into NYC or surrounding areas that day or the day after. her little heart was broken. the tears starting whaling up in her eyes the more it looked like her dream Christmas gift was going down the drain…

 

I panicked. so I called the airline and we found a flight to LA. within 8 hours of take off we were throwing the snow boots out and digging for our flip flops!

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we landed at 11:30am went straight to get our rental car…a convertible of course (they upgraded us to a BMW) which was totally fun and now my daughter decided that is what she wants as her 16th birthday present…dream big baby girl, dream big!!

top down, we drove straight to the coast. our first stop was the Santa Monica Boardwalk where we rode the ferris wheel and of course…funnel cake!

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that afternoon we went into LA and checked into The Line hotel for the night. The biggest struggle with this trip was A.) I am not that familiar with the area and “things to do” & B.) up until a few hours prior…we weren’t even thinking LA so I had NO PLANS! we took the evening in the room and around the cute hotel, ordered room service and did just that… we made a plan!

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that next morning we  got ready and headed out to grab coffee and a yummy breakfast off Abbot Kinney at The Butcher’s Daughter and then took PCH1 to Malibu. found a beach and spent most of the day playing in the waves!

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she had so much fun in the pacific she decided she wanted to go at it again… although the fogged had rolled in and I thought she’d be a little disappointed,  she casually said “mom I love the fog its kind of mysterious” that is when my heart burst and I KNEW she was a girl after my own heart! a few hours beach hopping and ice cream searching we then headed back and stoped to eat at Malibu Farms over looking the water and back to settle into our super fun and quirky hotel in Venice, The Kinney this time.

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our third day in LA we wanted to stay in the city and see all the things… so we drove to Hollywood and did the star walk of fame the wax museum and then found the HOLLYWOOD sign! we checked into the next hotel…Mama Shelter and went to the rooftop to grab lunch and the view! that evening we went to the Little Damage ice cream shop for some BLACK ice cream and walked around The Last Book Store before heading back and packing up.

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I had posted on Instagram a few options for new bedding and got such an overwhelming response from you guys! I was looking for something simple but with texture, similar to my last one…but with white and 3 stinky dirty teen boys and a daughter who loves to lay in my bed to do homework…they don’t last very long. I went to my few “go to sites” West Elm (which was where my previous bedding was from and I LOVED it), Anthropologie which is always a win win, Urban Outfitters,  Pottery Barn and a few others…

 

this one from Anthro won out however I can’t link because I apparently bought the last one…anyways, I shared the final result on my IG story and my inbox was flooded with people asking to see more of my bedroom…so here we go!

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This is my room…so lets talk about it for a second… I am sure you have seen a few of the houses we have flipped in the past. We truly have been blessed with some of the most amazing homes ever. I try hard when designing each home, to give myself time to really feel the home and let the house itself dictate the end design. When we moved “home” the market doesn’t lend itself to many options… so we pretty much had to take what we could find and oddly enough this house is ending up to be one of my top favorites.

There are things I’d love to change, but again in this market it can only hold so much being invested into it knowing financially we wouldn’t get a return on it… so the carpet stays…along with a few other things I am learning to have to work around. In here, my solution was to cover it the best I could with a textured rug and layering bedside rugs over that.

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I am a lover of white walls… and using my decor to add the color. This home doesn’t get great natural light either so even when this room was painted a soft mustard by the previous owner, it still was too dark for my liking. so paint was the first “fix” to make this room a little brighter!

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and plants… plants make EVERY space feel more ALIVE! and please don’t judge the dust and finger prints…clearly I didn’t clean before I took these pictures!

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The most unexpected MOST USED piece we have in our room was this mirror from Ikea…at any given time you can find at least one if not all FOUR of my kids checking themselves out in it! I just draped a strand of patio lights from Target oared it and apparently it just draws them in for a look and occasional pose! (or snapchat selfie…whatever!)

 

Also I have gotten a lot of questions about this buffalo painting… I saw the print on Pinterest and it was crazy expensive for the size I needed so I got out my paints and painted a canvas and framed him myself for literally a 1/10th of the cost…and so what his legs are a little off…we won’t look at that part! 😉

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Wall paint: White Dove by Benjamin Moore

Headboard: West Elm in Cayenne

Bedding and colored throw: Anthropologie Throw… other bedding option was: THIS ONE

Black and White Throw: Dot and Bo ( a few years ago)  but THIS one I love too!

Throw pillows: Target

Light up Cinema Board: Urban Outfitters

Live your story ring dish: All the Wire

It will all work out print: People I’ve loved

Paper Rock print: Urban Outfitters

Letter board: Letterfolk

White ceramic floor planter: West Elm

 

 

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It is homecoming week. So in small town spirit there was a homecoming carnival followed by a bonfire and the crowing of the Homecoming King for class of 2017/2018. Let me tell you, I went to a very small school. We graduated with 160-ish students. It was a school where you might not had been best friends with everyone in your school, but you for sure knew everyone four years above and fours below you. You could play and shine in more than one sport, and most did.  (well except for me I couldn’t contain all this athleticism even with all that offered) haha

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so when our sweet little town grew into a “city” we found this sweet town… now hear my heart, I have fought this town…hard. I love it for everything it has to offer my kids, but we are in the middle of nowhere, we have to travel at least 45 minutes to a decent grocery store or a Target, dr appt, lets not even get me started on a mall… and my clients are all about a 2 hour drive away…so Ideally for an adult with a busy life raising 4 kids, running a business, and trying to keep up with a home life…the placement and opportunity isn’t ideal.

BUT what I didn’t take into account was the heart this town had. Oh it is hard when you are an outsider. You don’t have the history like you do in your own “hometown”.  And lets just address the *insert the rest of that saying here bc I have no clue with it is, but I will make it up* unicorn in the room… ME. I am a little different than your typical small town Texas gal. The only “cowboy boots” I own come from Free People and aren’t made for walking in dirt.

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But what I do know is my heart. I see how this small town loves on my kids…and honestly how these small town kids love on me and my family. In a time where the world seems out of its ever loving mind… I feel so blessed to be surrounded by every shade of skin color in the rainbow…becasue no matter that, the smiles are ALL. THE. SAME. and those hugs feel no different than another. and for me, that is ALL that matters.

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Here, we all pray and glorify the same BIG GOD that created us all to be equal. These kids call me “momma” and to be honest, I am. my heart sees then just the same as my own. Here we respect adults, we honor each other and we smile in passing. Here we stand and show respect for our country. We pray for our visitors. Here we love.

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I had a problem with storage in this tiny converted sunroom office. I knew I needed shelving but I also needed a desk space… I found the perfect solution on Pinterest. I decided why not try it for this space…

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I went to my local hardware store, and got the adjustable shelf tracks in the closet organization aisle. Mine were ClosetMaid Brand like the ones HERE. I just got the white ones (they also come in black and silver). I measured the wall and knew how many I needed. You will also have to “map out” your shelving unit to know how many brackets LIKE THESE to purchase. (I actually bought a few extra to have around incase I felt like changing mine up from time to time).

Once I got them home I pre-measured the width of my wall and made sure the hight for all were level with the floor. This took a little brain work because I am not that great at math and numbers and straight things. And because NOT ONE hole fell on a stud, I made sure to use sheet rock screws to hold the weight of it all.

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I lightly sprayed the tracks and brackets with Rust-oleum spray primer for metal. Once it was dry, I then did 2 coats of this pure gold metallic spray paint.

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Clearly my set up wasn’t science… if you don’t know enough about me by now, you should know when I have an idea I am a “jump in and make it happen, lets think about logistics and all that dumb stuff later” kinda gal… sometimes that works for me….sometimes not so much! 😉

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Then I put it all up and measured the 1′ x 4’s **I opted to use real wood instead of the pre-made plastic-y looking precut ones they have available with the units. You can ask the hardware store to cut them for you. mine were measured in 2″ foot and 4″ foot sections. (because my spans were 2″ foot)

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This is the most “brown” stain I quickly found browsing the stain aisle (because very little of this was thought out for this), I got an old sock…don’t judge me…and ran the stain over the cut boards, let it dry and put them up. I also only did one coat because, well I was super anxious to get it done and that is just how I do things. I didn’t secure them to the brackets, that again would have taken more time and yah…we have gone over this already! I felt the weight of the wood was fine. **the bottom shelf is wider 1′ x 4″ because I needed it to fit my computer (keep in mind those brackets need to be the longer ones as well).

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there you have it. I made this entire unit for under $200 and in less than 2 hours. Any questions? If I can do it…with one hand while drinking my wine…anyone can do it…so go…build you a desk people!

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TOOLS NEEDED:

drill and bit to pretrial sheetrock screw holes.

hammer to get those plastic sheetrock screw things in.

Phillips head screwdriver to put said screws into said plastic things in said holes.

sock or rag for stain.

*wine is optional but highly recommended.

SHOPPING LIST:

shelf tracks (I used 4)

9′ brackets (my unit layout used 14)

18′ brackets (I used 3)

1′ x 2″ boards (I used 4)

1′ x 4″ boards (2 were used here)

1′ x 2″ x 4″ piece of wood (I think that is how you say it…the bottom piece of wood for my “desktop”) *I found this piece in a precut section of HomeDepot it was actually Birch wood but stained still matched the pine shelves.

stain of your choice.

spray primer.

spray paint.

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